December 8

Beckett's surgical biopsy is tentatively set for December 8 in Cincinnati. We are looking forward to getting their opinion (and hopefully some answers) regarding Beckett's digestive problems. They are working to schedule the other testing around this date, and the week of bowel management will follow the surgery. We are excited at the possibility of answers and solutions, but I think with that excitement comes some nerves. It is easy to get side-tracked by the negative questions running through my head...What if they cannot figure it out? What if there is nothing they can do about it either? What if we just have to continue on this schedule of bottle feeding formula indefinitely? But, then I stop myself...or at least attempt to. I know that worrying about what will happen does not help anything. There is no productivity in worry. In fact, worry just eats away at you and makes everything harder, so I am working to choose not to worry. Not always easy...but worry is sin. It is a sin that so easily creeps in and takes a hold of our hearts. It has always been a struggle for me. I can so easily be caught in the grip of worry. It is one of Satan's attempts to "devour" me. But I refuse to give Satan that power and live in constant worry. I want to place all my trust in God and remind myself constantly that He is in control. He is bigger than all of this. He is bigger than tests and doctors and answers. He is our Creator and the one who holds us all. So I daily..hourly...work to push worry out and give it all to God. I am so thankful for a God who cares for us and loves us. We are very hopeful that this trip will bring us new options for Beckett. This hospital is number one in the country for pediatric gastroenterology after all! We are praying for solutions. I know that regardless of the outcome of our trip to Cincinnati, our God, the same God who created the sun, moon, and stars, is taking care of my sweet Beckett and our family. And He always will.

1 Peter 5:7-11
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power forever and ever. Amen.